BirdEnjoyer

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And as for hobbies, try needle felting if you feel dangerous.

stabbing is fun, and its not about precision, just the aggregation of effort.

All the alcoholism in both sides of my family, and I’m fretting about my liver, when I’m taking less than the recommended dose of a prescribed medication that could change my life if I could take more.

And I’m on a COPD inhaler and I’ve never touched any death sticks at all.

Life isn’t fair, I 100% feel you.

I also literally felt you when they put me on amitriptyline and that gave me hbp and they kept trying to act like it wasn’t that big a deal- that with all my other health problems, my blood pressure would start getting off, and I’d have stress, yadda yadda.

It really does feel physically horrible, especially the headaches and sleep issues.

My biggest advice is to never be afraid about a second- or third or fourth opinion with your health, and be gentle but persistent with your goals.

Its the art of pushing without breaking.

Now, this is the experience for me and some unhealthy overachievers, so take the following with a grain of salt:

A lot of times people with underlying health issues actually function their whole lives by pushing until they crash, but hide their crash, and just assume everyone else hides the meltdowns/16-hour sleeps/weekly puke sessions/etc too.

If that happens to describe you, then you’re going to need to get comfortable with giving just 25% effort in a lot of things until you can safely figure out how to actually not hurt yourself.

I’m serious.

Step out of your skin, and treat yourself as you would your precious little sibling or something. Dote on yourself.

Aaand I’ve typed too much. It gets my own stuff going. But good luck.

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Yeah, the doggy door bell turned into the “Attention” bell instead of the “Outside” bell for a while for us.

Then when she realized we made her go out every time, she stopped using it and went back to a little wuffle.

My dog responds to swear words by doing the kinds stuff you see emotional support dogs do in videos- press on your chest, give you kisses, nuzzle your face, etc.

Except she’s small, blind, and a bit… intense, so she kinda launches into you if you’re sitting, with some intense affection.

IDK why. I guess we don’t swear very often, ao when we do, its special, and we swear with enough gusto for her to think we’re very, very upset.

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Just to let you know, the whole thing where you look back on every little thing you do and cringe won’t magically go away when you’re an adult.

That’s a self-esteem thing, not a teenager thing.

I guess what I’m saying is that this is one of those things that can get better, but won’t just magically get better on its own. It didn’t get better for me until I got some control in my physical health (stuff that would affect my perspective) and took agency in my mental health.

If you’re in the situation to do so, check out what kind of therapy resources are available to you. You can just try a bunch until you find one that really clicks, and a lot offer free brief consultations.
Many employers offer 4-10 free visits for any immediate family members/offspring, too!

I’m sorry you feel so critical of yourself all the time. Its so draining to live like that.

The 90’s mentality of “Everyone on an Internet is a predator out to rob you or worse” left a mark on me-
I always use a fake name and innocuous, random profile pic if possible.

These daus you’re still screwed if someone’s that determined, but at least screw the corporations like this.

I started using two so I could more easily remote game with my sibling.

The second one would have their screen stream up, so it was like we were playing split screen co-op back in the day. :)

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I mean more in the broad sense- to hope that there’s going to be any action at all towards something one personally likes.

My standards are pretty low I guess.

Its a vague undulation in a direction I think most folks here would probably prefer?

That’s kinda all you can realistically hope for a lot of the time

Now, I do wonder if one could use printing and a pantograph to somehow create small, but marginally viable records.

Sounds like a stupid challenge someone would make a YouTube challenge from, really

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Nah, usually just more trauma after a certain point, if its anywhere near even the hyperbolic description of “Kill.”

I’ve been through enough. A mild to moderate amount of life challenges will be plenty going forward.

I mean, just play Palworld, Princess Maker 2 and Hatoful Boyfriend and you basically got the desired experience.

I mean, I assume.
I think I’m too ace for this.

I am talking about though is SLA printing though- resin printing, but without the resin, basically.
Which is why I think its more feasible than just extrusion printing on principle. The layers are incredibly thin, with no extrusion involved, and no exposure to air until well after the layers are formed.