I understand how frustrating that must be. It sucks to have people tell you all of your life that you can’t do certain things because of your intelligence and then have someone tell you it’s “not real”.

I think most people who say this (including the person you’re replying to) are trying to reassure you, not dismiss you. The origins of IQ are arguably racist/classist and the science behind it is disputed by many. I was told all my life that i had an above average IQ, but i never understood why. I didn’t feel smarter than my classmates and I did poorly in school. I later learned that I did well on the IQ test because of my economic background and the resources that I had available to me from a young age.

Intelligence is such a broad concept that we frankly don’t fully understand yet. So the fact that we measure peoples intelligence and worth over a number is bullshit and dystopian. This is where the split in your experience comes from. You feel the effects of a low IQ because society values it too much. But most people know it’s a metric that’s used as a cudgel against others.

In other words, I very much believe that you are treated differently and have fewer opportunities as a result of your IQ, but that’s an indictment of our society; not you. On top of it all, it sounds like you didn’t have the support network that other people have. Verbal and physical abuse from the people who should be our guardians and champions (your father) will stomp the spirit out of anyone.

I know it might not be comforting, but I read your post and you didn’t seem unintelligent to me. Sure, your sentence structure might be different than mine, but you seem like a thoughtful and connected person. What I’m missing, most likely, is the effort, time and energy that it may have taken you to write your original post, which i dont want to discount. But you’re able to get your thoughts and feelings across just fine, at least in the form of writing.

Alright, enough with the pep-talk. Do you have any interests or things you like to spend time with? Video games? Animals? Exercise? Drawing? Writing? Makeup? Anime? Cooking? It doesn’t matter if you think you’re bad at them – I’d recommend pursuing those interests. Sometimes volunteer work opens up opportunities that you haven’t considered. It can also help you create that social safety net that I was talking about earlier.

I would try to get a job that gets you by (I know, easier said than done). Something like janitor work, fast food, retail, or hotel service. It doesn’t have to be permanent, but just something to keep a cashflow while you give yourself time and room to grow. I’m not sure where your located, but I would check for non-profits or local orgs that offer assistance to folks.

Don’t let our psychotic and unhealthy society dictate your worth. You are a human being who has thoughts and feelings. Your ability to hold a job or quuckly solve a problem is relatively superficial.

I bought a Boox Palma and I love it. I know people have concerns about privacy related to android (though a kindle and/or Kobo are just as bad IMO). I never set up an Google account and it’s been in airplane mode since I turned it on. I wanted an e-reader that I could add books from my PC without any fuss. That’s all I need and it works well for that. I love the form factor too.

Great recommendations. Just an FYI, your second link is broken because the markdown got messed up.

That’s a good point. I guess I just read the title and everyone else’s comments saying stuff like “Python” and “TypeScript”

Kinda surprised that no one has mentioned sign language. I feel that it’s use cases expand outside the original intent, especially if other people in your circle understand it.

Hadn’t heard of that one. Looks nice! Do you know if there is a built-in way (even if it’s through a plugin) to sync your content across devices? I didn’t see anything on their homepage about it.

Definitely feel ya there. I highly recommend Obsidian or Joplin. Not sure what features you’re looking for, but I’ve found Obsidian refreshingly simple. Aso nice knowing that it’s just markdown files on my device that can’t be sold as data.

I believe it’s even more bleak than that. My theory/prediction:

Once these companies manage to make game streaming a reality, my guess is that they will scale back their consumer GPU divisions without hesitation. The goal is for us to ultimately own nothing. Software is already leased to us (you don’t technically own the games in your steam or epic library). The end game is for hardware to be that way as well.Until then, we’re going to see most people priced out of consumer hardware.

If game streaming services become a reality (I’m talking about a situation where latency and data transfer are less of an issue), they will be positioned as a revolution in entertainment that deliver high-end gaming performance to the masses. As the technology matures, we will see multiple services take hold. It will be like Netflix/Hulu/prime/peacock/etc. but Blizzard/Steam/Epic/Ubisoft/etc. Essentially we will have to pay the equivalent of a new PC/Console price tag every year to rent hardware.

Ironically, what holds this back in today’s world is the greed and shitty infrastructure that’s offered by US ISPs.

I think this is a pretty obtuse take. Users obviously want their mouse to remain functional when the battery dies. It’s not a wireless vs wired mouse debate.

Yep, anyone who is celebrating this is shortsighted and letting their own nationalistic ideas and jingoism cloud their judgement.

Out of curiosity, what will you be switching to?