My problem is that I want kids.

Except, I know it’s stupid. The insurmountable student loan debt that’s currently a yoke around my neck is half of what it would cost to raise my ideal two children to just 18 years old. Climate change is going to destroy our way of life in the next 30 years, I’d be bringing them into a world on the brink of collapse. Society will break down when famine/disease start going unchecked, this is what I want them to experience? All so, what? I can have a little buddy that looks up to me and thinks I’m great for a few years? All so I can get my little kodak moments in between miserable days filled with screaming, crying, no sleep, stress, financial hardship, troubled marriage, and no sex?

And here I am, suffering from major chronic depression/anxiety… Would I even be a good steward of these children? I know I’d like to think of myself as just a baby away from switching into “Dad mode,” but would it be enough? Would I be waking up early to get my kids breakfast and lunch together, or would I fall deep into depression and get up at 2PM like I’ve been doing? Will I even have the energy enough to play with my kids after work? What about building that tree-house, and doing school projects? What about after-school sports and parties and everything else? I am barely holding myself together, am I really going to be able to switch my whole personality like a light switch into becoming the kind of Dad these kids would need?

I would be trapping myself into a job I hate forever, just to have these children, which would also make retirement a fever dream.

So why the hell do I still want them? I just wish my head and my heart could be on the same page for this, and they are just not.

Some wizard tool I can download that will swap out Windows for a stable Linux distro, like Fedora or Debian.

Well what happened is it tried to update, got stuck, and now won’t start. tried starting it over and over and over again while hitting F1 and F2 and it just spins it’s fans. Though it randomly will start-up into a weird BIOS safe mode and give me a couple options, but I’ve yet to find the magic option that let’s me boot it up using the previous version of windows just so I can turn it into a Linux machine. It’s gotten to the point that I’m willing to pay someone to take it and convert it into Linux Fedora or Debian for me (and then pay for a quick tutorial in how tf Linux works 😭 )

EDIT is this actually a service? If this exists I’ll fucking do it, I swear

I bought a computer in 2007 that was 8GB of RAM and a TB Hard-drive, but a recent windows update bricked the machine because it didn’t have enough space. Is that what’s going to happen to these machines? Just, right off-the-line and into the garbage?

Sucker Punch

This was a movie that was like “hey! wouldn’t it be awesome if there was a world where the nazis brought back dinosaurs to fight with- Wait! wouldn’t it be cool if there was like, a world where space travel was affordable and we had a moonbase an-wait! wouldn’t it be cool if there was a world where-”

And each time I’d be like “hey, there will be cool lore and world-building I’d love to see aaaand they already shifted into a different thing.” That movie pissed me off so much. Shoulda just been either a softcore porn, or leaned more heavily into the idea of a real-life “Heavy Metal” remake.

Unfortunatley latestagecapitalism and it’s two prominent russian trolls are still going strong. u/saltyamerican and u/godlesscommie. Too bad.

His reasoning for deleting my comment was “democrats are fascists.”

During a literal republican fascist regime.

There isn’t a tone soft enough to deal with lunacy.

Being banned by those shit-heels is a badge of honor and intelligence. Congrats!

A bunch of posts? I wrote a conversation provoking comment that was upvoted far more than downvoted, and spurred other comments.

it was removed because the mod has an anti-democratic agenda that they can’t defend. Instead they just remove comments and ban people. It’s shitty behavior by a shitty mod, and deserves to be called out. I’ve seen 2 other threads talking about this exact behavior.

Funny, I just had a thread going about the same thing happening in the “LateStageCapitalism” instance……

u/godlesscommie, where are you? Gonna come onto this thread to bitch and moan as well?

Moved from Midwest to West to South. In the South, they use “How are ya?” as a greeting. I was not aware. So for the first few weeks/months, I was answering them honestly and just loving how friendly everyone was!

Took me a while to understand you’re just supposed to say “Good-n-you?”

Felt like a fuckin idiot.

Exxon did not respond to requests for comment, but it has denied misleading the public or investors about climate change.

That’s a lie.

“We believe the legal and factual theories set forth in these proceedings are meritless and represent an inappropriate attempt to use the court system to usurp the proper role of policymakers in addressing the societal challenges of climate change.”

Read: We only want the people we have direct control over (policy makers they bribe) to have any say in this matter.

Asked whether a 2018 press release, which said Exxon anticipated “10,000 barrels of algae biofuel per day could be produced by 2025,” was misleading, the scientist said “yes,” adding, “All the clauses in there are patently false.”

That’s their own scientist calling them liars.

With the threat of climate action looming, he (Sprow) wrote, the company’s research and development on “Greenhouse” should have two primary goals: “Protect the value of our resources (oil, gas, coal),” and “Preserve Exxon’s business options.”

Sprow then laid out an agenda for how to achieve those ends.

With modeling critical to climate science, he wrote, “it could be considered important to be at the forefront of this modeling effort.” Sprow proposed “supporting a person on staff at one of the leading modeling centers (e.g. Princeton) or by sending one of our people to work in such a center.”

That’s their CEO telling them that “now that climate change is out of the bag, we need to focus on protecting our business (you know, as opposed to the only planet we have), and we need to engage in criminal subterfuge to either bribe a climate modeling expert, or insert one of our own agents into the field.”

“continue to question the scientific basis and cite the high economic cost” of policies to address climate change and “avoid pressures to negotiate a compromise.”

That’s a quote from a meeting of oil executives, laying out the framework of their carpet denial of climate change. The strategy is something you’ve seen before. Disrupt action by “just asking questions, while bringing up the cost” and “avoid accountability.”

This is the same strategy republikkkans use to deny you healthcare and justice. Except in this case it’s being weaponized to help them achieve wealth by destroying our only planet.

The place that handles my rental says “good news! you can pay by credit card on-line now!” and then just quietly tacks on an extra $8 charge on top of the credit card also getting their beak wet. So now I gotta pay like $15 just to pay my godamn rent??

I refuse to pay these BS fees. I only ever drop off checks. That still only costs me for the amount I pay for the checks, which is only a few cents per If memory serves.

What’s even worse is when you’re in debt and you gotta pay fees just to make a payment on that. Living in america means you’re always just a couple steps from debtors prison or living on the street.

Recently went on a date, and after a couple hours in the coffee shop we went for a walk where she started looking for something to eat. She said she doesn’t eat beef or chicken. She’s not vegetarian but she is gluten free and wants thai food but the thai place is closed so let’s walk and visibly confirm there’s no more thai places open and in my head I’m just like “OMFG I forgot how much I hate having to deal with another person while eating/trying to find food.”

The whole time I’m just like, I hope I can leave soon so I can go eat whatever the fuck I want.

My parents got me braces for my top set, and they’re super easy to floss, almost never had a problem with them. Had to wear a brace stretcher thing at night that hurt and was awkward, so they took pity on me and got me a retainer for my bottom set, which I lost almost immediately, twice, and then POOF like magic, they stopped giving a shit about fixing my teeth lol

So my bottom set of teeth is a horror show, is super difficult to floss, and gets mad cavities. I shoulda just got both done up by braces at the same time. Kinda weird they didn’t now that I think about it 🤔

The realization that how we feel is directly affected by the things we do and food we eat is super frustrating.

Mainly, because I want to eat like shit and do nothing and still feel good and it just doesn’t work.

On the flip side, as someone that’s dealt with long-term chronic depression, it’s nice to know that there are literal activities that can directly counter my shitty mood. Taking a walk, petting a dog, talking with a friend/loved one, sitting in sunshine, exercise, listen to music… etc. etc.

It’s kind of like half the pharmaceutical industry has sprung up because people would rather take a pill and feel a bit better, than engage in any sort of healthy eating/exercise to feel actually better.