Asking because I remember telling my mom I wanna kms and she got upset and told me she regret giving birth to me.
Later when confronted, she told me she only said it because she was angry, that she didn’t mean it.
Nowadays she tells me she loves me (I mean she always told me she loved me, but then there are a lot of memories of me getting yelled at… so idk… wtf), that everyone in my family loves me (really mom? pretty sure my brother hates me to death).
Bipolar much?
(Pls don’t spam comments with “see a therapist”, working on it… healthcare system sucks to navigate)
I have shared that frustration, trying to find that balance.
I try to get some basic wisdom through to them to help prevent something horrible happening later, but I don’t want to cause them pain now, either.
I have taken to asking them to take my hand in theirs, when I think they aren’t listening.
The younger kid appreciates the connection. The older kid practices their active listening skills to make me leave them alone sooner.
Ha. I’ll try that, thanks!