I’m under the impression that Google deliberately hinders their YouTube platform just because you have ad-blockers. With videos taking time to buffer, seems to signal this, because it almost makes up nearly the amount of time for when ads take if you had to watch them. So since you’re ad-blocking and they don’t like that, they’ll make your experience miserable until you want to pay their service or not use ad-block.
You ever hear about those “internet detox” camps in China?
I just have an intrusive thought like: what if my parents got some sketchy psychairist that used ECT on me in order to “get rid of my ‘behavior issues’” (aka: make me more obedient to my parents) and it also would wipe my memories of that ever happening…
Like I don’t treat this theory as 100% true, but its just one of the hundred of “what if my life is a lie” thoughts I have… since I feel very skeptical of everything…
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Do I sound “schizo”?
I mean I do have depression…
Yeah… idk if I even wanna mention these intrusive thoughts to a therapist. I feel like they’re gonna lock me up for sounding so schizo.