Live in the past, is mine. I will listen to things over and over because some songs or even podcast episodes, rewind me back to times where I felt comfortable in. I do sometimes poke my head out to see where things are currently in the present, but nothing around really makes me gravitate to anything current-day. But, then I just go back to my hole in living in the past.
People used to tell old people to get over it about them remembering things as they were all of the time. I’m understanding why they do that. Sometimes the present really truly sucks.
I don’t give a single shit what people think about me anymore.
And it stems from the constantly-reinforced experience that people almost always have no idea what they’re talking about.
For now, I’ve at least retained a basic level of decorum, but the line is blurring in a way that has me a bit frightened to be honest. Throw in some neurological degeneration and I totally understand why old people act like lunatics in public