Rather disappointed, awful, like a failure. I’m the one whos supposed to be safe and comforting for them. Of course excluding when they do something bad as anxiety then is kinda expected, but even then the punishment is never unpredictable, cruel or malicious and there’s ample warning before hand.

Though i do understand you, had the same issue when growing up, eventually went on to become kinda debilitating as i couldn’t speak to her at all. Though there is some fault on her as well as she was kinda explosive and unpredictable. Never spoke to her about it, didn’t have the balls/guts.