I used to hurt my self and went to therapy explaining that I was afraid I will end things: They didn’t lock me, and instead help me understand what a lot of people go through, and that the fact that I am asking for help means that I’m in the right direction.

That said, my brother killed himself after VA fumbled his sessions, he spiraled down and for a single week he was in high spirits, always joking, as if we had him back. Then my dad found him. I wish they had locked him so I could still have a brother.

If someone here is considering self harm, please ask for help. It is worth it and you matter to us.