I’ve always eaten better than most but it has improved even more since I finally went vegan 7 years ago, been vegetarian on and off since my teens but now I’m sure it’s for life, and I’m very happy and proud about that!
But I’m not doing well otherwise, got pretty major executive dysfunction which is getting worse with age so I’m stuck at home 95% of the time, unable to do the most basic tasks.
My dad passed away in December 2024 and the closest friend I’ve ever had passed away in November last year, so it’s been real fucking hard to not get so bad that I need serious help, like a psych ward, but I’m managing ok most days. There are more things, both stuff that’s too complicated to explain quickly and stuff I don’t feel like sharing openly like this.
Never been able to force myself to work out or do anything physical just for the sake of health, I’m fully aware that it’s important and that I’m losing years of life but it just doesn’t happen no matter what I try. I’m not obese though, never was.
Sleep has been rocky all my life, it was pretty good for about 5 years until last year, it’s still better than in my teens and 20s though.
But I’m using all the energy I have to get better. It’s slow, very slow, and even one thing too much can push me back down for weeks, but long term I’m improving in most aspects.
I’m just so fucking tired of being broke all the time and never having money to do anything, I get barely enough for rent, bills, food and snus (yeah, I should stop, but I’ve never even gotten close to doing so, and living in my city which is basically snus heaven where every grocery store has like 40 kinds and convince shops have 100+ and almost all my friends and some family members use it too makes it feel impossible (not putting any blame on anyone else, just explaining the circumstances)).
So yeah, good and bad, heh.
I’ve always eaten better than most but it has improved even more since I finally went vegan 7 years ago, been vegetarian on and off since my teens but now I’m sure it’s for life, and I’m very happy and proud about that!
But I’m not doing well otherwise, got pretty major executive dysfunction which is getting worse with age so I’m stuck at home 95% of the time, unable to do the most basic tasks.
My dad passed away in December 2024 and the closest friend I’ve ever had passed away in November last year, so it’s been real fucking hard to not get so bad that I need serious help, like a psych ward, but I’m managing ok most days. There are more things, both stuff that’s too complicated to explain quickly and stuff I don’t feel like sharing openly like this.
Never been able to force myself to work out or do anything physical just for the sake of health, I’m fully aware that it’s important and that I’m losing years of life but it just doesn’t happen no matter what I try. I’m not obese though, never was.
Sleep has been rocky all my life, it was pretty good for about 5 years until last year, it’s still better than in my teens and 20s though.
But I’m using all the energy I have to get better. It’s slow, very slow, and even one thing too much can push me back down for weeks, but long term I’m improving in most aspects.
I’m just so fucking tired of being broke all the time and never having money to do anything, I get barely enough for rent, bills, food and snus (yeah, I should stop, but I’ve never even gotten close to doing so, and living in my city which is basically snus heaven where every grocery store has like 40 kinds and convince shops have 100+ and almost all my friends and some family members use it too makes it feel impossible (not putting any blame on anyone else, just explaining the circumstances)).
So yeah, good and bad, heh.