I had a weird thing happen that kind of fucked me up. I haven’t cried or been able to cry since. Lost a close relative and I saw another explain what happened (it was particularly sad). When he was explaining he started to begin tearing up but swallowed and stone faced. He finished explaining and I haven’t been able to cry since. For clarity, I’ve never had a problem showing emotions or crying. I used to cry at inspirational stuff or sad stuff. Its been around six months now. So when’s the last time you cried? Maybe hearing some stuff will loosen me up.
On an episode of a hospital-based show, a little girl (like, 8 or 10) drowns in a pool and effort to resuscitate fail. That didn’t get me, even with the parents crying. The girl has a sister, who is making a card for the girl who has already been declared dead. Sad, but didn’t get me. Sister explains that the girl died saving her, since she fell in the neighbor’s pool trying to get a ball, and the sister jumped in, pushed the sister out, and then couldn’t get out herself, and eventually drowned.
And I got slammed with a real-life memory. I work in Search and Rescue, and one case my station had over a decade ago was a pair of children that got swept out to sea. Only the younger brother survived. Because the sister spent the whole time keeping him above water, and ended up exhausting and drowning herself. I try not to think about it, because it fucks me up really bad, and especially because now I have a daughter and a younger son. That scene dredged that up real hard, real fast.