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  • As a child, I wanted to be a zoologist.

    Later during my teens I wanted to be an artist. And I did.

    I pursued the arts for a very long time. Started as a silversmith while I was still in my teens, a career that lasted about 15 years give or take. Meanwhile I kept studying arts. I managed to get some illustrations published but it wasn’t a lot. As my silversmith era was ending, I got into 3D design/VFX. I managed to work for a small studio for two years. Best job in my whole life, unfortunately it ended too roughly with a mix of industry collapse, burnout and personal relationship problems all entangled.

    That was a couple years ago and in spite of my best efforts I couldn’t get a job in 3D ever again. This in turn drove me into depression, of which I’m crawling out of, currently holding a job in retail ( I jumped from one retail place to another until I found a decent work environment) but unfortunately my creative side is not giving any signs of life. The current AI debacle adds insult to injury, discouraging sharing new work at all if I had anything substantial to produce.

    It’s shit. But it used to be great. I wonder if there’s something of Phoenix in me or if I’m just a pile of ashes. Only time will tell but the years keep piling up and things don’t improve.












  • Hello. Lemmy is known for having a tech savvy userbase, not so much dabblers in the occult arts. Please don’t let that dissuade you - I would be searching for a community with an occult bent first. Try any of the find-a-community communities and see where people point you towards.

    Having said that, yes I do like the occults even though I can’t say I take them seriously like I did in my youth. Traditionally the suit you would be looking for is the swords for the sciences, since the swords are associated with the domain of the mind, judgement, truth, thoughts, etc.

    Edit: try !findacommunity@lemmy.ml

    … not sure if there are other community finders outside of .ml but that should get you started