dogerwaul

yes, but i am also becoming more tolerant of personal quirks as i’ve learned of my autism and how it impacts my socializing. i worry nobody likes me and tend to avoid conversation. i want friends. i have some, but more would be nice. something genuine and deep but equally as stupid and silly and shallow.

i am non-binary transfem and my living area is usually messy but nowhere near like a dumpster. however, i do have some bad habits from having ADHD and also never being told to clean as a kid because my mother was an obsessive house cleaner so she got to everything first. so while i was raised male i’m not a man but i definitely was allowed to be messy as a boy… so i’m sure that contributes to a degree. my guess is we raised boys to be less tidy because we wanted them to focus on more traditionally masculine career paths.

i meannnnnn… that’s fair. so do i lol. but my job serves the community so it seems more like a service i’m willingly providing than anything. we don’t need “jobs,” we need fulfilling labor that benefits the whole.

okay so, as someone who has struggled with this my entire life but has recently married these concepts together let me try to give some insight. i truly thought i would never be able to find a personally rewarding job that i am good at and can tolerate well. i resigned myself to a lifetime of taking what i could get while constantly searching for that elusive role at a company that didn’t seem to exist.

the way i found my current job was simply by never giving up. i wish there were more to it. it was merely a matter of time moving forward plus the amount of searching and applying i did on a semi-regular basis. basically, never stop trying to find a job that benefits you as a whole. it’s likely out there and close by but incredibly difficult to obtain because everyone wants it. everyone wants the kind of job you’re searching for. your competition is large but it could always be your turn next.

i work for a business that gives back to my community. it is an amazing feeling knowing that i contribute to something people depend on and does good for the people in this city. i wish everyone had a job with purpose and meaning instead of meaningless tasks that only serve to make some asshole richer.

keep searching! always believe you deserve better because you do.

i used to. they’re terrible. i couldn’t stand the infighting and dumbassery.