I’m under the impression that Google deliberately hinders their YouTube platform just because you have ad-blockers. With videos taking time to buffer, seems to signal this, because it almost makes up nearly the amount of time for when ads take if you had to watch them. So since you’re ad-blocking and they don’t like that, they’ll make your experience miserable until you want to pay their service or not use ad-block.
I’m gonna sound so schizo, so bear with me:
My most paranoid suspision: History is false, this is a simulation. Humanity is long extinct and aliens have recreated a few humans in a test lab for shits and giggles.
Some lower-stakes suspicion: Okay maybe history isn’t fake but someone tampered with my brain and deleted some memories, perhaps negative opinions I have about certain family members were altered to make me less hostile against them. Idk I just read about ECT and I got paranoia.
Or: Maybe my parents aren’t my real parents… 👀
People can change and opinions can change :) the brain does a lot of processing itself.https://scholar.google.com/scholar?hl=en&as_sdt=0%2C5&q=processing+painful+memories&oq=processing+painful+mem#d=gs_qabs&t=1772031476416&u=%23p%3DhKK6MlHuq8QJ
Finally, some real schizoposting here. Everybody else is just putting out hypotheses based on real life evidence while you’ve given me exactly what I wanted:
Lol those are two separate thoughts, its one or the other, not both. Also I’m not that serious about it… its more like intrusive thoughts lurking in the back of my mind.
School teaches government propaganda
Likewise, your parents also push propaganda, but more of “how much we sacraficed for you, you are required to love us”
Everyone has their own agenda to push
To what end?
You ever hear about those “internet detox” camps in China?
I just have an intrusive thought like: what if my parents got some sketchy psychairist that used ECT on me in order to “get rid of my ‘behavior issues’” (aka: make me more obedient to my parents) and it also would wipe my memories of that ever happening…
Like I don’t treat this theory as 100% true, but its just one of the hundred of “what if my life is a lie” thoughts I have… since I feel very skeptical of everything…
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Do I sound “schizo”?
I mean I do have depression…
Yeah… idk if I even wanna mention these intrusive thoughts to a therapist. I feel like they’re gonna lock me up for sounding so schizo.