Rock bottom is no objective state but a psychological one where you literally can’t care anymore and feel indifferent towards dying or consequences.
Somewhat ironically, i needed to get to that state to discover that once i had given up, nothing could hurt me anymore and i could do whatever I felt like without worrying about societies weird rulings and restrictions.
Never ended up doing anything that was really outlandish but experiencing that knowledge of absolute freedom and freewill (anarchy)
kept me going long enough for it to become an escape vector to climb to a condition where i could care once again.
Rock bottom is no objective state but a psychological one where you literally can’t care anymore and feel indifferent towards dying or consequences.
Somewhat ironically, i needed to get to that state to discover that once i had given up, nothing could hurt me anymore and i could do whatever I felt like without worrying about societies weird rulings and restrictions.
Never ended up doing anything that was really outlandish but experiencing that knowledge of absolute freedom and freewill (anarchy) kept me going long enough for it to become an escape vector to climb to a condition where i could care once again.
So, you’re proving the adage “you hit bottom when you stop digging.”
Look at Charlie Sheen. Guy had a million second chances, and only stopped doing drugs after he’d caught AIDS and was being blackmailed.