• akmur@lemmy.world
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    I don’t remember any trauma happening but I’m just like you… bad memory all around. very little memories of childhood and teenage, or really in general

    one thing I found out is I have aphantasia so I wonder if you’ve got that too

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      No, I’d say I’m actually a pretty bubbly and cheerful person most of the time. For a while I did feel pretty empty and blank, I would describe the feeling as “sterile”. Just kinda absent of stimulus and variety of emotion. I’ve gone through a long and difficult arc of figuring myself out though. Two years ago I had a breakthrough and have been getting happier as time goes on.

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        aphantasia Is when you can’t form pictures in your mind, I’m wondering if there’s a link

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          oh duh, I though it was the no happiness thing lol. Yeah, I’m almost incapable of forming mental images. I can kinda build an image by adding details, but they fade quickly. So I have to essentially keep re-adding details rapidly to sustain the image. So the images are imprecise and constantly changing. It’s like looking at a kinda rough sketchy animation. It takes a lot of concentration to do too, so most of the time I have no images in my head.

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            20 hours ago

            yea, that is aphantasia, I wonder if that’s a common trait when it comes to bad memory