I kinda just realized I never really talked much to parents besides the occasional mentions about school or news…

Which is likely why my first language kinda never developed beyond like 1st grade lexicon, since I use English outside of home, and also its the most common language on the internet most websites and media is English, its the lingua franca of the world…, so I never really got to use my first language much, not much conversations. Or perhaps its the other way around? Maybe the language barrier that caused me to not really able to have a conversation with my parents in the first place. Idk.

So… yea… relationship-wise nowadays… not that close… the reason is kinda self-evident lol

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    15 hours ago

    Hm. This is a great question.

    I have always been a chatty guy, despite it sometimes causing me grief of one kind or another. While I don’t specifically have memories of conversations with my folks (when I was young), I no doubt had them.

    That said, I’ve also always been a widely misunderstood person (at least to my mind); I never seemed to conform to people’s expectations (even today to a degree). I have developed severe trust issues because of this, especially among my family bloodline; as such, I have cut off all communication with everyone on my side of the family* — even if they never actually hurt me (sorry Egg!!).

    * By this, I mean I do not talk to anyone older than me in my family (I am the youngest); I do however go to great lengths to talk to my children every day; even if it’s about nothing in particular. I also do not shy away from sharing stories of my childhood, or how they’ve affected me, as I firmly believe that they deserve the truth, and also should learn from my (and my family’s) mistakes. Suffice it to say, I do believe that my children are doing much better in life than I ever did when I was their age, so maybe it’s working.🤞