My family of origin is within 50 feet of me like most of the time when they’re at home… like every moment when they’re not busy with stuff.
Spend time? Idk.
I don’t speak Cantonese good enough to express my feelings… too depressed to learn… mom doesn’t really understand English that much and she sounds awkward af with a weird accent so nah…
Mom want to “chat with me” but like…
No clue how to even talk to them in a way they underatand…
They scroll WeChat during their free time and watch tv
I just watch my own stuff on a laptop…
So yeah…
🤷♂️
My mom would hug me, then be like: “so when can you start acting normal?”
How did you grow up without learning your family’s native language? Did you all never communicate…?
Their phone addiction plus lack of emotional communication sounds like classic mainland last generation to me. I’m raining my child speaking more than just English and working hard to give them a leg up. I can understand how difficult it may be!
Like it takes a bunch of time for brain to come up with words… and its hard to come up with complete sentences when I have depression and anxiety so I just stutter all the time
So I can’t really express feelings and depression and stuff…
I see you, I see your pain. I am sorry your days are hard. Keep on keeping on, friend. Things will get better, or they wont. But keeping your focus on what your doing and what you want is key. Cheers.
My family of origin is within 50 feet of me like most of the time when they’re at home… like every moment when they’re not busy with stuff.
Spend time? Idk.
I don’t speak Cantonese good enough to express my feelings… too depressed to learn… mom doesn’t really understand English that much and she sounds awkward af with a weird accent so nah…
Mom want to “chat with me” but like…
No clue how to even talk to them in a way they underatand…
They scroll WeChat during their free time and watch tv
I just watch my own stuff on a laptop…
So yeah…
🤷♂️
My mom would hug me, then be like: “so when can you start acting normal?”
How did you grow up without learning your family’s native language? Did you all never communicate…?
Their phone addiction plus lack of emotional communication sounds like classic mainland last generation to me. I’m raining my child speaking more than just English and working hard to give them a leg up. I can understand how difficult it may be!
Sorry you feel sad.
I can talk like a 2nd grader…
2nd grader vocabulary
Like it takes a bunch of time for brain to come up with words… and its hard to come up with complete sentences when I have depression and anxiety so I just stutter all the time
So I can’t really express feelings and depression and stuff…
I see you, I see your pain. I am sorry your days are hard. Keep on keeping on, friend. Things will get better, or they wont. But keeping your focus on what your doing and what you want is key. Cheers.