Like…
Idk why my mom got upset at me for making songs with lines like “This cruel world” or “The darkness of the skies”
I just want some catharisis¹ okay, what’s wrong with that?
(¹Am I even using this word correctly?)
I think my parents are just boring and doesn’t appreciate art lol…
I was told to “stop being negative” and “think happy thoughts” and my depression problems will go away!
Wow Dr. Mom with the Psychology PhD in WeChat Social Media University! I’m so cured! 😭
(not a teen anymore, just a dependent young adult with depression, still with a teen brain that never really “grew up” lol)
The more I hear from you the more it seems your mom is completely oblivious to your world and your thoughts. I’m glad you are talking to us, and I hope you also have friends who can give you even better advice (and maybe a therapist when you can get there).
Just know you’re doing a truckload of things rn so if you manage to make it, that’s incredible, and if you shut down and need to take your time, that’s completely understandable even if your mom doesn’t get it.
My dms are always open if you need to talk to someone ^^
Looking back on my childhood, I see that my Mom had anxiety issues and there were a lot of cases where she was white knuckling to get things done while having a panic attack. She had developed some maladaptive behaviors to deal with this, in part because mental health wasn’t a thing back when she grew up.
It sounds like your mom had her own maladaptive traits.
Growing up in the 1960s/70s China that was wrecked by Imperial Japan just a few decades before they were born and with food-insecurity tends to do that… 😞